Perfect Me

Hey everyone, happy new year to you all!

I wrote Perfect Me last year and thought I would share. We all can agree most of us say no one is perfect.  What is perfect to you though? My perfect and your perfect can be two totally different things.

We all have different interpretations of words and their meanings. Some based on how we grew up and some have nothing to do with the dictionary meaning.

You may have heard a person or group use a word incorrectly and you carry that with you your entire life never venturing to find the true meaning of it. But isn’t that true with certain mindsets and actions as well. I encourage you to take look at the things in your life (your tribe or family) that you do that do not give you the result you want, but you continue to do anyway. Take the time to search for the way that will give you a better results.

Perfect Me

I don’t have to be the perfect you want me to be.

I just have to be the perfect representation of me

who God created when He thought of me.

When He said let there be light

I was already in Him

waiting for the right time to come into the earth realm.

For the time when the things He put in me

would be necessary at this point in eternity.

As I live I try daily to yield so His glory can be seen.

Daily as I say yes to the purpose God buried in me

I see parts of me I never thought could be.

Parts I see and wonder….

How can this be! Is this really me?

Amazed and in awe of what can be

once I continually yield

It causes me to want to be all I can possibly be.

So I continue to say yes.

Yes, no matter what my eyes see

or what my ears hear.

I choose to say yes to that voice within.

Yes to my Lord, Redeemer and King.

I pray always I allow You to guide my path and

be submitted to your will for me.

So I can be the perfect me,

your original intent when you thought of me.

Love Jiselle





Hey everyone,

Happy December ! The Christmas season is officially upon us and it can certainly be seen and heard all around.

The cleaning, baking, dinners, office lunches and who can forget the shopping, are all in full swing. I realised last year that I really love the Christmas season . Not just because of the gifts, but because of the singing and family. That newness that you get around this time. Then my birthday is in January so I’m always thinking how my year went and how I could do better next year.  The following is another piece I wrote at the end of November as I was thinking. Hope you enjoy. God bless…..


As I explore the inner parts of  me I see things that should not be.

As I explore I see hurt, anger, insecurities and pain bottled up to remain.

Untouched  unmoved.  This can’t be.

It contributes to a toxic me. It gives the bad a chance to thrive.

An atmosphere to stay alive.

I want to be free. I want to be the best possible Jiselle.

The one I was meant to be.

Yes I explore and go deep to see the things I should not keep.

I identify and open one by one the issues I’ve kept untouched and undone.

I ask for help and I acknowledge  the truth.

It’s only through Christ I can truly be free.

It’s only He can clean the inner me.

Lord help me to love, let go and live.

Help me let go of things that should never be attached to me.

Help me to love people for who they are and accept who they choose to be.

Lord help me to love them for who they are and not try to change them into who I feel they should be.

Help me let go of anger and pain until only your love, joy and peace remain.

Where impatience used to be allow your patience to be birthed in me.

Daily as you choose to forgive me, Lord help me also to forgive.

Clean my heart and my mind so I can be the gift you created me to be.

Love Jiselle

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Hey everyone ! 

This is something I wrote a week or more ago. Most of you know I write about my own experiences in my posts ( check here). I just wrote as the thoughts came and as I’m practicing my writing where every day I write whether I want to or not! I have penned a few more. I’ll be posting them up, …….again me exposed! he he  aah!

So as this was the first it’s up first. I’ll be saving them under LOVE JISELLE  so you can look out for them there. Thanks for following, commenting and all your support so far guys.

Here goes……..


Who would want to see

My thoughts on paper be.

Exposed for all to see.

Out in cyber space

Could never  be erased.

This is me exposed

My cuts, scrapes,bruises & scabs

some still fresh and raw.

As I write I see

the inner parts of me

in print as clear as day

so many things to say.

As I pen I see

 healing within me.

For my thoughts are out

no longer imprisoned

inside of me.

Oh what freedom it is!

Though exposed

I’m free!

Free to explore the inside of me

getting to the truth

of who I am

getting to the truth of me.

love Jiselle

Successful Living – Forgiveness

Hey everyone Happy August    November!

So this topic of forgiveness came up because my church has had Inner Healing services for the past few months. In a few sessions we dealt with forgiveness.

We often talk about our many issues (anger, bitterness, insecurity etc.) but don’t look within ourselves long enough to find the causes. When we get to the why of an issue it is easier to solve, by addressing the cause instead of the emotions that result.

In this post I share some of  what I learnt from our sessions on forgiveness and of course my experiences in forgiving.

Over my life I’ve heard people say you must forgive others not just for their sake but also for you. I never really understood this fully, yes I heard what they said but what does that really mean anyway ……..a lot of great sounding words strung  together?

Only after experiencing this for myself have I really understood the true impact of forgiveness. It has truly been life changing, to say the least!

I learnt to forgive myself.

Have you learnt to forgive yourself? Forgiving yourself is important but  often overlooked. We tend to see where others can be forgiven but we continue to punish ourselves for past mistakes.

I was living in regret, thinking that I deserved whatever I got because of the many mistakes of my past. We sometimes make decisions in life that we do not realise at the time are wrong for us.  My pastor told us if we knew better we would have done better. It makes no sense punishing yourself for mistakes you have already made, instead, admit the errors and choose to move forward.

Do not dwell on past mistakes and allow them to constantly be a part of your present. Forgiving yourself is important, it’s the only way you can move forward. I learnt how you treat yourself is a reflection of how you treat others. If you find it hard to accept forgiveness for you, are you truly forgiving others?


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Forgiving God.

Be truthful to yourself and admit where you have blamed God for certain situations in your life. For me, I realised that I felt I had trusted God with certain things, making decisions based on what I thought was right and things did not turn out the way I expected. I then built a defense where I would trust up to certain level.

God…… I can trust you here, but lets not go to this place. Stay in this zone where I can believe you to heal sickness but not my broken heart.

To overcome this I had to admit to myself I did not follow the instructions totally and in some instances made decisions on my own when I should have continued consulting Him.

Also I had to admit I made errors that could only lead to some of the results I got. There was no getting away from the results because every action has an effect. Our expectations are also often not always God’s intention.

Often we want to blame God for the consequences of our actions or the actions and choices of others. This is not right, God has left everyone with the ability to choose their own destiny. Your choices decide where you end up, don’t blame God for the choices you made.

Forgiving Others.

Have you ever said you forgive someone but every time you see them or hear their name emotions bubble up within? ……. Anger, disgust, anxiety, rage, shame maybe? Don’t worry … me too!

Don’t hide from your emotions, admit them and be true to what you really feel. By identifying your emotions you are on the road to being able to really deal with them. You can’t fix what you wouldn’t admit to.

Until this topic came up I thought I had a really good handle on this. I didn’t realise how long my list of persons that I haven’t forgiven was. It was long…  Don’t feel bad if when you start writing you feel the list getting “out of hand” (i.e. way too long)!

I had to pray about this, first asking the Lord to show me persons I hadn’t forgiven.

Then asking Him to help me forgive them. Some was hard, I had to go back many times for some! Don’t be alarmed I think this is okay as long as your goal is to get rid of that bitterness etc. Go back as many times as you need to get rid of it.

What made it easier for me was that I was reminded just as I want others to forgive me for my errors, I should forgive others. (it’s in The Lords Prayer).

Some of the things I was holding on to was so petty I couldn’t believe myself. I had done worse to myself and others. But when you choose to bury your true feelings and not be true to yourself this will happen to you. Things you should have let go of a long time ago you’ll find cluttering up your mind and heart.

Forgiveness does not need you to make up with the other person.  You simply need to let go of the hurt or betrayal caused. You do not have to allow the person back into your life or in the same role.

This was such a relief for me! I thought it meant I still had issues if I didn’t want the same relationship as before with the person.  Don’t ask me where I came up with this crazy idea! I really can’t say… I think this often prevents us from letting go because we believe if we forgive them then they have rights to the same relationship as before. That’s not true. You decide where in your life if at all you want the person.

  • It is only the love of Christ that can truly help you to forgive. Without God’s love it is just impossible to forgive and move on in some situations because it is only using his wisdom you can say yes and let go sometimes.
  • I was trying to forgive from a surface level, not really dealing with the hurt, betrayal, or whatever emotions the situation evoked. When I dug up those feelings I had buried, forgave myself and others and allowed the love of God into the situation, I finally felt free. I mean….. like light, a weight I didn’t even know I was carrying left me! If I had wings I would fly….. like seriously!
  • I let myself and others I had imprisoned out of jail.  Took my personal power back and so I no longer gave those persons power over my emotions and actions. If someone other than yourself can decide the way you feel every time you see, hear or think of them, then you have given them way too much power over you.
  • Forgiving is a daily choice. We interact with people daily and it would be foolish to think with all those personalities out there no one would ever hurt or be hurt whether intentional or not.
  • Sometimes we hurt so badly and we bury it so deep even we forget it’s there. The human mind is a powerful thing. Many times on autopilot we hide, run or pack away our emotions and anything else we don’t want to deal with. In the long run however it does us no good. To be our real selves and experience true success, we must let go of pretense and the lies we told ourselves and others.

I learnt that so many times we may miss God’s blessings because we are carrying issues within us that shouldn’t be there. Don’t allow yourself to miss the blessings of God’s peace, love and joy because you refuse to believe that you can forgive yourself and others even as God forgives you. It’s possible!!

God Bless!


Successful Living – Input=Output?

Hey everyone

How have you been since you last visited? I hope you are moving in the direction you want to go. So I’ve been thinking for some time now about input = output. Is what you put in really always what you get back?

My mind has gone in this direction because I have thought of the things that have brought me to my present place.

I have found that I have spent many hours listening to and reading positive information.

Much of the information has been quite helpful along the way to build my faith no matter how life decided to play. I must admit however some of the input wasn’t so wholesome and caused me to make some errors along the way.

Nevertheless whether I fell, ran, walked, stood or swayed, whether I was discouraged or motivated I was able to move forward (sometimes crawl forward!!!) because of my input.

What if I had decided to leave the input on the shelf? What if I had not gone to the seminars, bought the sermons, read the books. Where would I be now?

Once we are living, good and bad can’t be avoided. What if we choose to take in more good than bad though. Wouldn’t the outcome be a more  positive than negative look? Is there a ratio of positive:negative that is needed to move forward or win in life?

Well after thinking and observing for a while I had to scrap this theory. I observed that even though some people (myself included!) are exposed to a lot of positive input they still somehow sometimes choose to give negative output.  My conclusion? It’s really a choice, at any given moment you must decide what you say and how you react.

If you decide to expose yourself to positive will you really listen and live from that positive outlook or will you choose negative (which seems to be default for most of the population). Again it comes down to you, what do you choose?

Recently my pastor brought further clarity on this subject for me. She pointed out that everything we hear and see leaves a seed. Even though we may think something does not affect us it often lies dormant until an event, word or thoughts trigger a reaction from us. Wow!!!! That is both scary and awesome at the same time!

Scary because I really don’t want any fruit from some of the things I have heard and seen over the past years. Really…. some things I’ve heard and let stay in me have produced some not so nice outcomes.

However, it’s awesome because I’ve read and heard some excellent life changing things as well that will hopefully work for me given the right environment.

So taking all this into consideration I decided to limit my conversations with some persons and avoid conversations altogether with others.  You know sometimes you listen to people out of respect but you really prefer not to, well I had to learn to respect my need for less negative input.

I also had to change some of the movies and tv series I choose to look at. I reallllly  enjoyed some of them (yes those extras are deliberate!! haha…) but I decided that I don’t want some of the things I saw in some of those shows to manifest in my life. I decided I am exposed to enough garbage involuntarily, why should I then want to deliberately contaminate my life!

I think the deciding factor in one instance was when I started thinking with the accent and using the slang!!! Oh my gosh!! I said to myself: ‘Really Jiselle…I think you overdid it a bit much!!’.  Can you imagine if I’m thinking with an accent what else has gotten its way into my conscience waiting to show up!

I also had to choose to generate more positive output! Imagine that! Decide to act right. Now my acting right is based on bible principles, cause everyone will have their own opinion on what is right and what is wrong, which will usually change depending on their mood or who they are dealing with.

However the word of God changeth not (yes I got all ancient on you! hehe! ooh!).

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 I encourage you to check your input:
  • Is your input helping you with your life journey?
  • Are you moving forward or backward due to your input ?
  • Is what you are exposing yourself to taking you to your intended destination?
  • Is what you expose yourself to really what you want to see manifested in your life?

What are you taking in that you shouldn’t, and what should you be including in your input that you haven’t?

Our input shapes our thinking, speaking the way we live and determines whether we grow or not. 

It’s safe to say then that the more we choose to use the good input we expose ourselves to the better our output or the way we live.

Now of course, all these are my thoughts from what I have observed, just me thinking from the inside out.

Tell me, what shapes your thinking and affects the way you see yourself and you life?

God bless!!!